Thoughts

There's a goal
There's a path to follow
Tho it's not an easy, flat, straight one to walk,
you'll sure reach the destination,
if you face it with courage and enthusiasm...

Believe in yourself, and live your Dream!

***** Happy New Year -- 2009 *****

Faces Behind the Masks

A place to hide..
their smiles and sorrows
their tears and laughters
tiredness and broken hearts
lost and angers
and their pride that has shattered...

This is where they can stay as evil as they can
as childish as they like
as ugly as they want
as crazy as they wish...

This is where they set their hearts free
where they show their true emotions
and their true feelings..

Who's that real face behind the mask?
May be someone will ask
may be someone will care
but no one knows
except the man behind the mask...

Vulnerable

Skeletal Defects
Soft tissue defects
skin tags
macrostomia
ear abnormalities
soft tissue hypoplasia
cleft lip
cleft palate
downslanting eyes
abnormal protrusion of eyeballs
abnormal width between eyes
abnormal cranial form
etc...

these were what we've just learnt this morning, in 3 hrs of symposium...
Went through many pictures of babies that were born with abnormalities..
It was depressing to see a few months old toddle was bruised from multiple surgeries that he/she has to go through.
It was so painful to hear that a few year old girl can finally give her 1st beautiful smile after countless surgeries, while more surgeries are still awaiting for her as she grows older.
Many of them didnt manage to get treatment because of poverty or lack of access.
Some babies cant even make it to see the world b4 they leave....

Can u imagine how much they'll hav to suffer just to smile and laugh happily like every other kids?

It says:

In every year, 4,000,000 children are born with congenital anormalies.
In every 2.5 minute, a child with craniofacial anormalies is born...

What can we do?

Treatment Failure

Arrrhhh!!

He reminded me again wat had happened on last Fri..
Thought i can just learn a lesson n forget abt it.. but he mentioned the case again..


Rubber damming a posterior lower 7 that needs huge distal cavity prep & restoration.
- 8th is absent, no support at all for a clamp! The rubber dam is just gunna eat into the distal side of the 7th. How am i gunna rubber dam it?! This is just too stupid. I'm a big dumb-ass if i just follow his instructions.. arhh..

3 IDs, that doesnt work. - this is my fault, i admitted!
Have got a feeling that i didnt get the right point after the 1st ID. Tried 2nd time, not working again. Was hoping tat he'll do the 3rd one so tat i can proceed with the treatment and learn fr my mistakes .. but NO.. i'll hav to do it. He only comes over after i failed the 3rd one..AHhhhh.. stress! Hav wasted 1 hr before i get to start drilling..

Time to fill
It's hard to fill by just looking at it. A huge DO extended subgingivally with just little tooth material left. Hard to even hold a matix band in place.
"Go on n fill it with amalgam.." tat's wat he said.
Took a deep breath, kept my mind as positive as i can, i tried my very best to pack the material in and carve. It was a challenge.
When he came back for a check, the next thing he said was: 'ok, i think this is not goin to work. The filling wont stay long. Next time we'll hav to do a gold inlay when the patient comes back."
Aaaaaaaarrrrhhhhh!!!!!!!
I'm goin nuttttss!! Why didnt he notice that earlier and we can just proceed with impression taking?! We hav wasted sooo much of our n patient's time doin NOTHING! Even a dental student can tell that it's not gunna work by just filling it at first!! There're more work to be done next time as we'll have to drill the filling out again!... arrrrhhh
Learnt my lesson. Now i've lost trust in him. Thinking of a way to escape..

Great that it's Halloween today! A good reason to go out to DRINK & DANCE... ^^


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Note: might still be able to learn sumthing fr a crappy tutor. Never giv-up!

静静的

好久没这么想念你。。
想念你的笑
想念你的关怀
想念你的宠坏

你离开的那一天
我学会了长大
学会了坚强
学会了什么叫幸福

已经很久很久没跟你聊天
没给你一个拥抱
没和你一起吃饭
没一起过节。。

在这一天， 我想送个礼物给你
想帮你唱首生日歌
想送上我最真诚的祝福
生日快乐， 我最温暖的太阳。